This pregnancy has flown by. Chasing around a 2 year old who turned three.. she keeps me busy and smiling! Sometimes fake smiling so I don’t lose it, but I’ve thoroughly enjoyed every minute of our babygirl being the only child. And that’s always the excuse! She is growing to want Daddy as much as Momma, which is what we need. But she still snuggles and loves on me so much as I do to her.. sometimes I catch myself cringing in little bits of pain because I bent the wrong way to get her! And more so recently, some nights or mornings I just cry because having just her is coming to an end. Of course I’m so grateful and thankful and overjoyed for my babygirl no. 2 in my belly, but how?! Like everyone says. It doesn’t seem doable to love another just as much! But then I’m reminded. Not only did my parents do it with my brother and I, but I have the love of Jesus in my heart.. making all things possible! Making the things that seem undoable, doable! So my current answer for this situation in my head.. I have to cling to Jesus more and more. Strive to be closer to Him each day because let me not lie, the worry and anxiety seems to only strengthen each day closer to my due date! Crazy right?! I approached Coralynne’s birth this free-spirited first time Momma who didn’t know what to expect and took it all in like a champ! Or so I felt like I did. That we did, Tony and I. We just rolled through labor and the first night at home. All was perfect and easy. Now I find myself laying awake for hours which are probably just a cluster of 10 minutes, but worrying. Worrying about how I’ll give Cora a bath like I do now. How will I get Cora to bed like I do now. How will babygirl no. 2 be, because with Cora I never put her down. What if babygirl no. 2 doesn’t latch the same. What if my milk doesn’t produce the same. What if I’m cranky in the night, cause I never was with Cora. What if Cora gets a cold. How do I balance this life of being a Momma to two?!

I feel a little neurotic. This isn’t me. Hormones are out of whack. Tony looks at me and ensures it’s all going to be okay. As does my Mom and my Dad. But this pregnancy has legit flown and I’m so content with babygirl no. 2 in my belly! I absolutely love her nudges and twirls, all the movement and bursts of energy she has from 8:30-11:00PM. Everything! I love being able to chug a bubbly and eat my crushed ice and get her moving. She’s amazing already! And I’m so excited to meet her so soon. I’m just soaking it all in, too, because a family of four is an even number and Tony and I are happy with four! The thought of three kids.. let’s just say this could be my last pregnancy so I’m so enjoying each and every minute of it!!!

The Bradley method. I’ve had so many ask me, is your date scheduled? Induction or c-section? No, husband coached childbirth round 2! My birth with Coralynne was so beautiful, to have a duplicate, which of course I know it’ll be different and spectacular in its own way, but – I LOVED LABOR! The intensity and the calmness created by Tony and I. The music and the ice chips. My parents and brother watching and cheering for me in the most respectful way. The waiting room full of family anxiously awaiting to find out if this baby in my belly is a boy or girl! It was miraculous. And I pray and believe this second birth will be the same yet different. Having it’s own unique story, after this sweet babygirl is in our arms! I hear glorious stories of second babies entering the world with a push or two after enduring an intense few hours of labor, that sounds wonderful! I get so excited for birth especially when I hear such beautiful stories. I’m sure after babygirl no. 2 arrives I will be ready to get a certification to help women enjoy their births more, I remember looking into costs after Coralynne was born, haha! Birth is beautiful. God created the women’s body to not only carry and help this baby grow in womb but He creates our bodies to release and birth them into His beautiful world! With that truth.. birth is the second most miraculous thing after the baby being created and grown..

.. and I have three weeks to enjoy this babygirl in uterine, soak in all the snuggles with my Coralynne and rest. God is in control! His timing is perfect and beautiful. His peace is with me, today and everyday as I give him all my worries and anxieties.. the things the world wants us to dwell on when preparing for the ultimate marathon of labor! Thank you Jesus for the gift of peace and the freedom of praying to you everyday to feel the closeness and security. God you are so good and have been so incredibly graceful in 2019, I’m so excited for 2020 💜